Coming out of the lab he never thought of doing anything like this but as he see her in the college corridor a lot of things or ideas start revolving in his mind. He and his friend are walking and talking in the college corridor but he is not with him, he is still thinking how to approach her. In the mean time she disappear from his sight and then he realize that he again miss a chance…alas!!!!
Next time I just go and tell her, what I feel for her…. straight forward no thinking at all (he is still thinking and talking to himself). Approaching towards the gate of college premises he saw some of his classmates sitting in the garden (on the way to girls hostel so obviously a hot place for boys). He join his friends and they start gossiping but he not interested in this rubbish today, he still thinking what a big loser he is…..does he haven’t the courage to say her, how many times he rehearse those lines which seems to be very difficult to deliver when she comes in front of him, heart stop beating, words are choked in the throat why??? Every time ahead of her, nothing would happened while talking to rest of the universe, is it right that our feelings let us on wrong paths????
Busy in his thoughts and getting some words from his friends conversation to which he can’t want to hear, he see her again….alone!!! on the way to girls hostel….yes I have to do it (he think in his mind), just go ahead of her and vomit all lines….you get another chance.
“Hey, where are you going” one of his friend urges as he start walking towards her.
“huh, can’t you remember tomorrow will be electrical lab” he says(what a lame excuse…).
“Then” one of them asked with surprise.
“We have to submit lab file and none of you completed it till now” he tries to convince them.
“Absolutely” a proud reply come (male ego).
“Going to get file from her” he replies with confidence this time.
“ok, but you have to share it with us” they asked, “ok” a very quick reply from him as he doesn’t want to miss her this time and start running towards her.
“Hey, stop” he shout from a distance, she turn towards him and ask “yes”.
“I want to say something to you” trying to show that he haven’t fear with a fake confidence.
“Say” she asks again after a pause “what happened”.
Omg!!!! Where the fu**** words stuck he is trying to shout in his full volume.
In the mean time a msg pop in her mobile and she start checking it while boy start gathering words from his throat. After checking her mobile she again asked “what do you want to say”. He gathers all his courage and say “I love you” and everything seems to be blank just crippled.
She seems to be cool and relax or pretend to be and say “these things are not to do in college (then happened where…)………… blah blah????? ”, Is she not speaking or my ear goes on a holiday, I can’t get a single word, He thinks that someone tweaks him so that he again come back to the world.
“You want to say something else,” she asks again but it seems that his brain refuses to reply, only a head movement seems to be a negative response managed by him after that she walk away from there.
He is still trying to find what happened, his world just shattered in a sec, but his mind doesn’t trying to feel even a single feeling and watch her to go standing still there. ”oye, what happen..” his friends start asking again and again, he start moving towards them.
“Where is file, what happen ?” they ask.
“Huuh, nothing” he reply as trying to sort out things.
“File????? “ They urged.
“She hasn’t it with him right now” say in a shattered voice.
“ok yar, kal ki kal dekhenge, are you going to home?” one of them reply.
“Yes” he says and starts walking behind them.
He left alone on the bus stand waiting for his bus and still trying to sort out things…………..
“My first attempt on a short story”.

“I always believe in dreams, I often try to combat injustice, but I always end up disappointed.”

Whenever I listen or read any interview of a celebrity, they always recite a line again and again “HAMESHA JO DIL KHE VO KARO” and there are so many people who use to say…"HEART IS IN LEFT BUT ALWAYS RIGHT”(I don’t know whether they follow it or not but audience ki taliya jarur mil jati hai ).
In my case all universal rules comes with a word in bracket “EXCEPTIONAL CASE” or in simple language “chu**** ke liye ye suvitha uplabad nhi hai”, I don’t know why these thing can’t work in my case. I always try to follow my heart and always result at losing side, all my decisions f*** me our backfire me, though my nature is a li’l bit rebellious so this heart try to pull me against the flow and result is predefined…….
My all decision whether it’s a major one or minor, no matter, as I stated earlier result is predefined…. In my early teenage a have a huge crush over a girl in my society (oohhh….I can’t forget the first day I saw him…..… forget-forget….) I thought she was made for me and there was a girl in my class who was my good friend and after school I miss her a lot but as I already defined the decision and results are always predefined in my case…..….
After 10th I took science don’t know why???? Only reason which seems to be satisfying is that when I was a child my uncle asked me what you want to be in future my spontaneous answer was “Engineer” after that day I never thought of second option. Though I am a engineer right now but this is not what I want from the life…..I can’t understand why my heart always say me to become an engineer ………
Left my case, I observed a lot of people suffered due to this. One of my friend is in a relationship with a girl, he think they are made for each other (till now…) but the girl ditched him three time and now come again in his life (charo bar ladki khud vapas ayi….).I can’t understand how they are made for each other, he tried suicide one time and just saved by chance. Last time when we talk he said that my heart is saying that give her a last chance, I think we are soul mate…blah…blah (every time she returned he said these lines)….I can’t understand why he is making his life miserable day by day (although reason is his heart), hoping that this time his heart is taking him in right direction from the core of my heart………
Take another case, one of my classmate and my good friend is in love with a girl from the first day he saw her (at counseling…I think girl don’t know this fact) but the twist is that the girl hate him with the same intensity with which he loves her without any fault (due to some good friends…) but the boy can’t forget him always saying that I can’t control my feelings for her. I can’t understand if they are made for each left that, boy’s heart forces him to love her than why???? Why there is not a single feeling from girl’s side why??????
Also when these successful celebrity saying that follow your heart its seems that its good to follow heart but no body trying to see the other side of coin, there are so many struggling artists who died struggling through out there life aren't they following there heart than why they are not successful.....
I don’t know whether I am right or wrong but reality always seems to be bitter. I am sharing my thoughts (as my heart says …hahaha). Always in confusion over this matter……. Hope one day I get my answer………..